Sunday, October 21, 2012

Baby Steps

There comes a time where you just have to stop talking about what it is you really want to do with your life; stop dreaming about it and start working toward living it. It’s that time; the time to put an end to all the wondering over how it is I’m going to get there—and just start moving in the generally right-ish (who really ever knows) direction.

At this juncture, all I really know is that a perfect day would consist of waking up in the morning and being able to fill a blank canvas with everything that I am. A blank canvas that most would simply call a word document. Time stands perfectly still for me while I write. ...I... am perfectly still when I write.  

It’s been frustrating… to have this inner knowing, an almost unbound certainty of what is I'm meant to accomplish here, without so much of a tangible clue as to how it is I'm to go about getting there. Every once in a while I’m reminded that this is all a journey-- and if I’m unable to see the beauty in my travel, then moving through it all in a state of detached blindness has every potential to take away from the personal triumph of reaching the terrain that has been reserved for me, and only me...

I read something that really resonated with me a few days ago; it spoke volumes:

Nobody tells this to people who are beginners, I wish someone told me.

All of us who do creative work, we get into it because we have good taste.
But there's a gap.
For the first couple of years we make stuff, it's just not that good.
It's trying to be good, but it's not.
But your taste, the thing that got you into this game, is still killer.
And your work disappoints you.
A lot of people never get passed this phase, they quit.
Most people I know who do interesting, creative work went through years of this.
We know our work doesn't have this special thing that we want it to have.
We all go through this.
And if you are just starting out or you are still in this phase,
you gotta know it's normal and the most important thing you can do is do a lot of work.
Put yourself on a deadline so that every week you will finish one story.
It is only by going through a volume of work that you will close that gap,
and your work will be as good as your ambitions.
And I took longer to figure out how to do this than anyone I've ever met.
It's going to take a while.
It's normal to take a while.
You've just got to fight your way through.
~Ira Glass 

So with that said, I've decided to start closing the gap between where I am and where I’m meant to be. Satisfied by doing what I can right now and sharing the contents of my gap.

Oh, Hiya Blog!

Jen xo

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